A few months ago I told you all about how I had unfortunately had a brush with the dreaded ‘C’ at the age of 25. The post had a crazy amount of visits & I am overwhelmed at the response from all of my lovely readers offering support.
If you haven’t caught up on it yet then you can get the low down here. I wrote this post after my operation to remove my pre-cancerous cells but then had an anxious few weeks wait for my results.
On Wednesday 7th September, just over 4 weeks ago, which was the day before my 2 year anniversary, my best friends wedding & a couple of days before we were due to go on holiday I received probably the best letter of my life from my consultant telling me that the operation removed all cells & I would now be tested in 6 months with another smear.
I can’t even begin to tell you how that letter made me feel. I cried happy tears (as some of you may have seen on my Instagram stories!) & felt a sudden relief wash over me that had been holding me for months since my initial smear results.
I was one of the lucky ones that caught these cells right before they would have ultimately turned into cervical cancer.
Those of you that read my blog post before will know that I actually had to call up my GP surgery a few times in order to be booked in for my first ever smear as I think a computer error on their part meant that I hadn’t been called forward for one. I was over 6 months late for it, but had I not personally actively pushed for my appointment, I would probably be sat here none the wiser with my abnormal cells developing.
Since I shared my story, I’ve had SO many absolutely lovely messages through from ladies that have avoided their overdue smear appointments but after reading have booked in. A few of them have unfortunately received similar results as mine & are now undergoing further investigation. Others haven’t been quite so lucky & have been through hysterectomies, chemotherapy or lost loved ones because of this horrible disease.
This just goes to show just how important it is to attend your smear test every 3 years!
So, how has this changed my life?
This experience has COMPLETELY changed my life. In ways I never ever thought possible. I would obviously never wish a health issue (let alone scare) on anybody but I do think it’s had a really really positive effect on me.
Physically I have realised that nobody (& certainly not I) is invincible & so it’s really important to look after ourselves to hopefully stop anything avoidable happening. I have joined Slimming World & started losing weight as well as making sure all of become a more active family. Even my two littles have had a bit of a shock when the biscuit barrel was replaced by a fruit bowl.
Mentally I have changed beyond words. Previously I was so anxious all the time, even to the point of going on to anti-anxiety medication as I couldn’t physically calm myself down or stop my mind overthinking even the smallest of situations. I think most other things such as my over the top keeping the house spotless all the time & always seeking ‘more’ in every aspect of my life stems from anxiety. It ruled my life.
My relationship with my husband has also changed & I think it’s actually affected him greatly too. Since the initial letter came & I spent 24/7 googling ‘cervical cancer’, convinced that I was going to die, he’s stepped up & taken care of me, shown me that I don’t have to be strong all the time & been quite frankly, my rock. Our saying is ‘happy wife, happy life’ which I always joke that he should get tattoo’d on him, but he honestly tries so hard to make sure I’m happy. He’s even overtaken me on the cleaning front (see below!).
Nowadays I feel much more laid back & little things don’t seem to bother me as much. I read ‘The Life Changing Magic Of Not Giving A F**k’ by Sarah Knight & have started adopting it’s principles which are ultimately to stop wasting time that you don’t have, doing things you don’t want to do, with people you don’t want to do it with. This book is incredibly funny as well as enlightening & it’s made me realise that I can’t continue pleasing everybody or trying to do everything & anything if it doesn’t make me happy.
I put too much pressure on myself to be this perfect person, which I most definitely am not. I feel like I’m slowly getting my priorities into their correct order.
My new ‘life is too short’ approach is helping me to realise that I should focus more on the things that DO matter rather than things that don’t….such as having a show home 24/7. Although I will always be very house proud & try to keep on top of everything, I am definitely not as strict as I used to be & even my husband has been shocked (& quite frankly horrified that he’s had to start doing more…) at how I just simply don’t care as much anymore. Hoovering 3x a day won’t change the world & neither will making sure the house is immaculate before I go to bed. It can all wait.
Love, Charlotte x